I gots me some winter blues darlin’ and I don’t know how to shake em’

ImageIts official…I’m developing the SAD’s (Seasonal Affective Disorder)

I’m not coping with this cold weather, and it’s not even into the thick of it!

It’s like this draining vortex (completely not over exaggerating)  that’s sucking the life out of me.. already.

As much fun as it is to laze in bed on a cold miserable day with my heat bag (lil hottie) and read a book, there comes a point where one gets over it (well I know I sure do). And all I want to do is run around outside skipping in the sunshine and feel the heat penetrate my skin.

Well, let me tell you.. this isn’t happening of late.. due to lack of.. His Royal Highness – Mr VIT D.

Melbourne winter weather is in a category of its own… actually it’s not unlike winter in London… It doesn’t look beautiful with its dark face, it doesn’t snow.. it’s just miserable and drab… and it’s enough to make us all run around in a depressive stupor,

If it was snowing, this would be a different situation. I could handle Switzerland in the bleak winter months, because, snow makes things pretty, it makes things sparkle.. it makes those long cold months seem kind of magical – this is far from the case in good ole’ Melbourne town, no sir e.

The lack of vitamin D is going to make me lose my mind, of this I am sure.,

The one thing that is still working for me right now, is that I have managed to go for a stroll (I would like to say jog) along the beach the past few nights.. Albeit cold, the view of the sun shining over the horizon and then the inevitable plunge into the sea has been absolutely breathtaking… I have always thought the sun sets were definitely a lot more spectacular in the winter at the beach when the clouds and the different colours are dancing over the waves… it gives it a different kind of depth that the summer just cannot produce.

So although Melbourne is planning to get down and dirty with me this winter, I will try and look to things such as the beautiful sunset over the ocean to pep me up and cure my sure fire case of the SADs.

Doesn’t it just make you want to beg it to stay forever??

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May 8, 2012 - 8:31 pm

Janosakian - As much as I love to be a bronzed god like Pauly D and winter doesn’t allow me to do that, there is a lot of elements of winter that can be harnessed to heighten the sense of really being alive.

May 9, 2012 - 12:50 am

Bec - I wish I could come walking with you. I hope winter goes quickly and we can feel the yummy sun again. 🙂

May 9, 2012 - 7:28 am

Meagan - Yeah, I don’t love to be snow white in the winter! But you are right, we must look to all elements of winter and find the lovely bits!!

May 9, 2012 - 7:30 am

Meagan - Yes, me too Bec, to both your comments xx

Ain’t nothing gonna’ break my stride..

Five years ago…

My life and my journey all seemed to take off dramatically when the decision was made between my two best friends and me to travel overseas.

We decided to do the whole cliché move to London shebang, with a pit stop in Thailand for a few weeks to head back to the grass roots of it all before throwing ourselves into the hustle and bustle of London living.

“Our” Journey turned sour reasonably early on (Thailand) with lots of home truths sprouting their way out of my two so called best friends. I sat back and watched them both contort into two complete monsters, leaving nothing left of the former them I knew and loved.
This went on for a few more gruesome weeks before anything changed; I didn’t have the strength and guts before this time to take the step that I knew needed to be taken. After a few more hardships and fights and many tears shed I took the plunge and left.
By plunge I mean I bawled my eyes out till I had no more tears left and my mascara had 100% made it down to my neck and boarded a train for north England where I knew I had a friend I could turn to.

That was the biggest step I’ve ever taken and I will not for one second in my entire life time regret the day that I summoned all my strength, courage and grace and left behind a situation that was blackening my soul to its very core.

From there, I embarked on a personal journey of self discovery. I took myself on some tours and travelled around Europe solo. I preceded to meet (and still see to this day) some amazing human beings who showed me what it is really like to live and to witness my own spirit soar. I had never felt as alive as I did when I was wandering the globe and discovering new places with these people. These strangers showed me more compassion and love than either of the two best friends I left behind had ever. They knew I was fragile and a little bit broken but they lifted me up high and to be honest, I haven’t quite come back down yet.

I eventually came back home while still leaving a piece of my heart in Europe, knowing, whether I liked it or not, I was tied to that place forever.

No regrets.

Four months after I had returned home I stumbled across a once in a lifetime opportunity. I applied for and was offered a job as an Au Pair in Switzerland looking after 4 young girls. Now, I must explain… I didn’t go looking for this job, it literally “popped’ up on my screen one day while I was at work and searching for something completely unrelated.     Fate.

Two months later and with my spirits more than flying I landed in Switzerland.
I settled into my new home with ease and there began Ma Vie Suisse…
I was in Switzerland for just under two years.
I knew I was given this unbelievable chance and there was no way I was going to let any little thing tarnish my experiences.
In this time I found my complete person, the person that I continue to try and be true to, day in and day out..
I challenged myself in so many ways and many a hurdle was placed in front of me and I always managed to come out the end smiling. I was in Switzerland after all. Life was amazing.

I visited some of the most magically breathtaking places on earth, places I never imagined existed. I also met and fell in love with my now fiancé J… A highlight beyond compare.
 I have no doubt there will be plenty of posts surrounding my time in Switzerland and the soul searching and soul finding I did. And more than likely lots and lots of photographs.

Returning to Australia in 2010 with J in tow, life has only gotten better. Together we have made our humble abode home.

Tied to Switzerland forever more.

May 9, 2012 - 6:04 pm

Lyndal - SO proud of you xo

May 9, 2012 - 8:06 pm

Meagan - Thank you Del. xxx